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STARRY NIGHT
♥ Sunday, December 23, 2007

hey there.

got a question for those people whom i have sent random smses to:
WHY ARE YOU NOT REPLYING MY SMS?

-.-

gosh. don't make me scream.
i hate it when this happens. okay?
i sent out 6 messages this afternoon to 6 different people.
and none replied.

hey. i know i'm not miss popularity.
not everyone is obliged to reply my sms.
but at least one or two?

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if you don't want me to send you random messages, just tell me.
OKAY?
i am getting real irritated.
do you know how sad and lonely poor mel is?
someone care about her feelings man!
i need someone to talk to.
you don't want your nice friend to die of boredom yeah.
that'll be like.... so stupid

-.-

okay.
my conclusion: MEL IS STUPID.
happy? now you guys made me admit this
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goshh.
spare a thought.
it sucks when someone doesn't reply your message.
duh

grhh. me not happy.
hey. tomorrow is christmas eve.
everyone, have you given me presents yet?
haha. nah. just joking (:
relax. if you're reading this post, you might be thinking i'm retarded.
YEAH. duh. i am so retarded.
don't even know why i'm typing all these.

zz. my internet connection sucks these few days.
even my computer's turning retarded.
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what's the world coming to?
or
my world, at least.
i mean, half the time,
i don't even know if i'm awake.
i don't even know if my brain is functioning right.

when you think of a person,
what do you feel?
not just any person.
someone special to you.
someone who means something to you.
someone... you miss alot.

what's it like losing a treasured friend.
a friend you really enjoy spending time with.
a friend you don't want to part with.
....
....
....
....
(the dots are supposed to be indication of thinking)

honestly.
i really am getting to the truth.
the truth of how broken friendships are really hard to mend. even no matter how hard one party tries.
doesn't work.
useless.
waste of time.
i shouldn't bother.
i should just stab myself.

seriously.
okay, i am about to burst into tears.
but i will not let myself be so emotional again.
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why bother.
i mean.
for my case.
there is no sign of optimism
i feel.... it's all lies.
lies.
nothing but lies.
i used to believe friendships will last.
all my friendships last.
the two friends i lost.
i patched back with one.
we're good friends again.
but the other....

is it that hard?
that hard to let go?
that hard to just TRY?
arghh.
forget it.
forget it, okay?
i don't want to try anymore.
i give up!
surrender!
hands down.
you win.
i'm tired of trying.
i'm sick of trying.
i'm feeling stupid cos i tried.
it's all a waste of effort, time and energy.
i don't want to try anymore.
you can ignore me for the rest of your life.
if it makes you happy.
does our friendship mean nothing?
that's what i feel.
if you really wanna mend this friendship,
you come explain to me
and
try....
try to fix all these.
i'm not going to do anything anymore.
whether you want this friendship or not.
you do something.

hmm. guess this is pretty emotional.
i promised myself no emo posts.
happy cheerful ones.
i even changed the blogskin!
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but if i really am not in the mood.
i can't help it.
i'm sorry.
to those who feel they have wasted so much time reading this rubbish.
i wasted so much time typing this too.

ciao

♥ MEL
3:58 AM