I hold your letter in my frozen hand The last line was long as long as it burns my look carries on With every word another feeling dies I'm left here in the dark No memories of you I close my eyes It's killing me We die when love is dead It's killing me We lost a dream we never had The world in silence and should forever feel alone Cause we are gone & we will never overcome It's over now Vultures are waiting for what's left of us What can we take? It all has no worth if we lose our trust They're coming closer, want you & me I can feel their claws Let me go now Try to break free It's killing me We die when love is dead It's killing me We lost a dream we never had The world in silence should forever feel alone Cause we are gone & we will never overcome It's over now Now, now It's over now Now, now, It's over now It's over now It's over now Vultures are waiting for what's left of us Taking the last of you & the last of me. It's killing me We die when love is dead It's killing me We lost a dream we never had The world in silence should forever feel alone Cause we are gone & we will never overcome It's over now Now, now It's over now Now, now It's over now It's over now
Love Is Dead -- Tokio Hotel ((:
OH YES, we die when love is dead.
Love is defined as a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person.
"Love" and "pain" are related. cos in every LOVE, theres PAIN.
well, err.... hate and pain are also related. cos when theres hate, theres pain?
crap, i dont even know why im talking about this.
must be those big goondoos who keep coming to me for LOVE ADVICE -_________- for god's sake, i aint experienced in this. crazy people!
zzzzzzzz
im seriously running out of ideas to blog already. and honestly speaking.... im getting a lil tired of tokio hotel. well, not only that. im getting tired of my 8gb worth of songs in my saturated ipod >< i need more songs!
there are couple of reasons i hate myself: (1) im always being emo and high at the wrong times. (DO NOT FEED ME CHOCOLATE) (2) im mean. well, i think i am. i've been mean to loads of people i guess. but hey, IM SORRY....! (3) i got 28/30 for the maths test! and i could have gotten full marks! ><>
SEE, now this has turned into an emo post -__-
songs to recommend: (1) love is dead - tokio hotel (2) inseperable - jonas brothers (3) numb - family force 5 (4) afterlife - avenged sevenfold (5) godspeed - anberlin
YILING! yeah. library rocks huh. cos theres a nice library president =D and make sure you do your duty properly. if not i'll get fired >< BOOHOOHOO. you dont want dear mel to be fired right
anyways, is it hard to read the posts? like font too ugly and size too small or something? tell me yeah
tadeedoos
♥ MEL
5:38 AM
♥ Friday, January 18, 2008
Noone knows how you feel Noone there you'd like to see The day was dark and full of pain You write help with your own blood 'Cause hope is all you've got You open up you eyes But nothings changed I don't want to cause you trouble Don't wanna stay too long I just came here to say to you Turn around, I am here If you want it's me you'll see Doesn't count, far or near I can hold you when you reach for me Your life is meaningless Your diary full of trash It's so hard to get along with empty hands You're looking for the rainbow But it died not long ago It tried to shine just for you Until the end I don't want to cause you trouble Don't wanna stay too long I just came here to say to you I am by your side Just for a little while Turn around, I am here If you want it's me you'll see Doesn't count, far or near I can hold you when you reach for me If the world makes you confused And your senses you seem to lose If the storm doesn't want to diffuse And you just don't know what to do Look around, I am here Doesn't count far or near I am by your side Just for a little while Turn around Turn around, I am here Turn around Doesn't count, far or near Turn around If you want it's me you'll see Turn around I can hold you when you reach for me Turn around, I am here Doesn't count, far or near I am by your side Just for a little while We'll make it if we try
By Your Side by tokio hotel
life is tough. very very tough. and its boring too.
LIFE SUCKS.
what do you do when you go crazy over so many things at one go....? and you feel you're going crazy when you totally don't want to? how do you control feelings and emotions? how do you stop yourself from thinking in ways you don't want to?
SUICIDE.
the deadly word that involves death -___-
okay. please do not get the wrong idea that i'm emo. well, the emo fad is kinda last summer, isn't it?
sometimes, feelings that develop in a person cannot be controlled. not at all. it's really really tough. cos sometimes you don't even know why you're feeling like this. for me, i didn't ask to feel like this either.
the organ that controls emotions.... the brain.... is there something wrong with my brain? should i get a gun to blow my brains out?
someone tell me how to stop thinking like this. cos i'm getting really irritated with myself
sighh.
the best thing to do is actually to.... (1) make myself study 24\7 and not worry about anything else (2) take drugs? maybe 3 dozen bottles of sleeping pills to keep myself sleepy and just sleep instead of thinking (3) kill myself.
how's that? three perfect things to do. i could throw a dice to decide on which option to take. but a dice has 6 sides. and i have three options.... HOWHOWHOW??? time to freak again huh -_-
ahh wells.
life sucks.
end of story.
MABEL AND YINSUEN, i am not going to quit the wednesday class and join on sunday. cos i'll have to make like alot of trips to kovan larh! HAHA come join wednesday emath! it's more fun.... cos i'm there! =D
tadeedoos ):
♥ MEL
11:54 PM
♥ Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Dein Fenster öffnet sich nicht mehr Hier drin ist es voll von dir und leer Und vor mir geht die letzte Kerze aus Ich warte schon ´ne Ewigkeit Endlich ist es jetzt so weit Da draussen zieh´n die schwarzen Wolken auf Ich muss durch den Monsun Hinter die Welt Ans Ende der Zeit Bis kein Regen mehr fällt Gegen den Sturm Am Abgrund entlang Und wenn ich nich´ mehr kann denk´ ich daran Irgendwann laufen wir zusamm´ Durch den Monsun Dann wird alles gut Ein halber Mond versinkt vor mir War der eben noch bei dir? Und hält er wirklich, was er mir verspricht? Ich weiss dass ich dich finden kann Hör deinen Namen im Orkan Ich glaub´ noch mehr dran glauben kann ich nicht Ich muss durch den Monsun Hinter die Welt Ans Ende der Zeit Bis kein Regen mehr fällt Gegen den Sturm Am Abgrund entlang Und wenn ich nich´ mehr kann denk´ ich daran Irgendwann laufen wir zusamm´ Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann Durch den Monsun Hey! Hey! Ich kämpf´ mich Durch die Mächte hinter dieser Tür Werde sie besiegen Und dann führ´n sie mich zu dir Dann wird alles gut Dann wird alles gut wird alles gut alles gut Ich muss durch den Monsun Hinter die Welt Ans Ende der Zeit Bis kein Regen mehr fällt Gegen den Sturm Am Abgrund entlang Und wenn ich nich´ mehr kann, denk´ ich daran Irgendwann laufen wir zusamm´ Weil uns einfach nichts mehr halten kann Durch den Monsun Durch den Monsun Dann wird alles gut Durch den Monsun Dann wird alles gut
durch den monsun by tokio hotel.
the love of my life -- bill kaulitz.
no larhh. think i that mad meh. fall in love with a singer.
okay.... but that's what happened.... >< when you start to get crazy over a singer, have his face on your wallet, as handphone and computer wallpaper and screensaver, a huge printout at the back of your file.....
ehh. am i talking about myself?
HAHA. this is stupid. and i've been thinking about loadsa stuff.
and i've come to a conclusion:
DON'T HATE YOUR EX. AND DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR EX.
okay. well.... i don't know how to put it. but somehow.... both have happened to me. and on the same person somemore.
oh wells. if you know who im talking about, or if YOU are reading this and you know i'm talking about YOU.
here's something. i'm not giving up. okay, maybe i will. but i'll wait. cos i'm nice....? HAHA. yeah. and according to the song ohio is for lovers by hawthorne heights "i'll wait for you, but i can't wait forever"
if love is not twosided, GIVE UP. if you love someone real bad but the person doesnt love you, give up. END OF STORY.
OKAY.
to my dear dear friend mabel.....:
HELLO MABEL! =D OH YES. I LOVE __________________ --____________________________________--
zzzz. this is lame
tadeedoos! ((:
♥ MEL
11:03 PM
♥ Saturday, January 12, 2008
I never dreamt it'd be this way I lost any chance for me to say To say that I miss you, say that I love you Will someone please tell me I'm okay I wasn't prepared for what's to come A life made of memories gone so young And now I'm regretting all I've done But in your heart you know that I'm with you all along Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright I'm in your heart tonight I never thought that this could go And take me away from all I know And leave me to think I'm on my own But your love will take me, you were the one...... Who sat through nights You held me tight And made sure I'm okay And I thank you for the love you gave to me Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright I'm in your heart tonight... Tonight... Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright Wherever you go, I will be waiting Whenever you call, I will be there Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright And if I should fall, I know you're waiting And if I should call, I know you're there If ever you cry just know I'm in your heart tonight... I'm in your heart tonight.
gone so young by amber pacific.
lovely lyrics.... love this song....
love someone....
ahh. stop thinking so much and get to work! Os coming.... in like.... ehh.... less than 9months?
sighh....
you know how people say words have two meanings? like....
i love you.
yes. two meanings.
(1) I LOVE YOU FOR YOU. cos you're awesome. you're cool. you're everything i wanted. it's not about sex or your body. it's about you. your heart. your brain. your character.
..... -.-
(2) I LOVE YOU FOR YOUR MONEY oh yes. i love you cos you're rich. i love you cos you can buy me those expensive necklaces that cost 1million each -.- i love you cos you can take me to a different country every day.
okay. sorry if im being lame. these few days been really lame.
hahah.
guess what folks i had the most brilliant sweet sixteen. grounded.
OH YES. I LOVE BEING GROUNDED -.- damnit. dont ground me on my birthday, i promise to be a good girl.
sorry. i don't believe in saying that kinda shit. so heyy. i love being grounded. i love rolling my eyes. slamming my door.
RIGHHTTTTT....!!!! arghh. okay. yes, i am grounded. but im not going to care. i dont give in
the one who started that damn fight will give in. and that person isnt me. so i'll sit back and relax.
genius. and maybe go buy a new memory stick for my phone and send my ipod for repair. great. i'm brilliant.
enough crap talk.
tadeedoos ((:
♥ MEL
5:51 AM
♥ Saturday, January 05, 2008
You're making a choice to live like this In all of the noise I am silence We already know how it ends tonight You run in the dark through a firefight I would explode just to save your life I would explode Let me light up the sky Light it up for you Let me tell you why I would die for you Let me light up the sky I can't find a wall to pin this to They're all coming down since I found you I just wanna be where you are tonight I'll run in the dark looking for some light And how will we know if we just don't try We won't ever know Let me light up the sky Light it up for you Let me tell you why I would die for you Let me light up the sky Light it up for you Let me make this mine I'll ignite for you Let me light up the sky Just for you tonight Let me help you fly 'Cause you won't have time To cover your eyes and get your disguise They won't ask you why, they'll just watch you die And it's still so hard to be who you are So you play this part, and the show goes on That you come this far with a broken heart Yeah, you come this far and you're broken... Let me light up the sky Light it up for you Let me tell you why I would die for you Let me light up the sky (Let me light up the sky) Light it up for you (Light it up for you) Let me make this mine (Let me make this mine) I'll ignite for you, I'll ignite for you Let me light up the sky (Let me light up the sky) Light it up for you (Light it up for you) Let me tell you why (Let me tell you why) I would die for you (I would die for you) And it's still so hard to be who you are But you come this far with a broken heart And it's still so hard to be who you are But you come this far and you're broken Light up the sky Let me light up the sky
light up the sky by yellowcard
this song.... reminds me of someone.
someone i loved. someone i cared for.
someone i still love. and someone i still care for....
okay. and those who know the JC i'm dying to get into. let me tell you. it has nothing to do with him okay! ><><
i don't even have time to celebrate my birthday. dammit.
tadeedooo.
the next few posts are gonna take a loooooooooooong time....
♥ MEL
5:38 AM
ME ♥
MEL THE GREAT ♥
how many great people on earth do you know?
MELMELMEL ♥
17yo.
09.01.1992.
pei chun public school. class of 2004.
cedar girls seconday school. class of 2008.
anderson junior college. class of 2010.
