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STARRY NIGHT

Friday, January 18, 2008

Noone knows how you feel
Noone there you'd like to see
The day was dark and full of pain
You write help with your own blood
'Cause hope is all you've got
You open up you eyes
But nothings changed
I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me
Your life is meaningless
Your diary full of trash
It's so hard to get along with empty hands
You're looking for the rainbow
But it died not long ago
It tried to shine just for you
Until the end I don't want to cause you trouble
Don't wanna stay too long
I just came here to say to you
I am by your side
Just for a little while
Turn around, I am here
If you want it's me you'll see
Doesn't count, far or near
I can hold you when you reach for me
If the world makes you confused
And your senses you seem to lose
If the storm doesn't want to diffuse
And you just don't know what to do
Look around, I am here
Doesn't count far or near

I am by your side
Just for a little while
Turn around
Turn around, I am here
Turn around
Doesn't count, far or near
Turn around
If you want it's me you'll see
Turn around
I can hold you when you reach for me
Turn around, I am here
Doesn't count, far or near
I am by your side
Just for a little while
We'll make it if we try

By Your Side by tokio hotel


life is tough.
very very tough.
and its boring too.

LIFE SUCKS.

what do you do when you go crazy over so many things at one go....?
and you feel you're going crazy when you totally don't want to?
how do you control feelings and emotions?
how do you stop yourself from thinking in ways you don't want to?


SUICIDE.

the deadly word that involves death -___-

okay.
please do not get the wrong idea that i'm emo.
well, the emo fad is kinda last summer, isn't it?

sometimes, feelings that develop in a person cannot be controlled.
not at all.
it's really really tough.
cos sometimes you don't even know why you're feeling like this.
for me, i didn't ask to feel like this either.


the organ that controls emotions....
the brain....
is there something wrong with my brain?
should i get a gun to blow my brains out?

someone tell me how to stop thinking like this.
cos i'm getting really irritated with myself

sighh.

the best thing to do is actually to....
(1) make myself study 24\7 and not worry about anything else
(2) take drugs? maybe 3 dozen bottles of sleeping pills to keep myself sleepy and just sleep instead of thinking
(3) kill myself.

how's that? three perfect things to do.
i could throw a dice to decide on which option to take.
but a dice has 6 sides. and i have three options....
HOWHOWHOW???
time to freak again huh -_-

ahh wells.

life sucks.


end of story.


MABEL AND YINSUEN,
i am not going to quit the wednesday class and join on sunday. cos i'll have to make like alot of trips to kovan larh! HAHA
come join wednesday emath! it's more fun.... cos i'm there! =D


tadeedoos ):

♥ MEL
11:54 PM