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STARRY NIGHT
♥ Friday, February 29, 2008

So, I've made up my mind
I will pretend to leave this world behind
And in the end, you'll know I've lied
To get your attention

I'm faking my own suicide
I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me
I wish you thought that I was dead
So rather than me, you'd be depressed instead
And before arriving at my grave
You'd come to the conclusion
You'd loved me all your days
But it's too lateToo late for you to say

Because I'm faking my own suicide
Because I know you love me
You just haven't realized
I'm faking my own suicide
They'll hold a double funeral
Because a part of you will die
Along with me
I'll write you a letter that you'll keep
Reminding you your love for me is more than six feet deep
You say aloud that you would have been my wife
Right about that time is when I come back to life
And let you know
I'd let you know that all along
I was...

I was faking my own suicide
Because I know you loved me
You just never realized
I was faking my own suicide
I'll walk in that room and see your eyes opened so wide
Opened so wide
Because you know
Because you know you will never leave my side
Until the day that I die for the first time
And we'll laugh, yeah we'll laugh
And we will cry
So overjoyed with our love that's so alive
Our love is so alive

faking my own suicide by reliant k



some memories just cant go away....

i wonder why.


i want to forget about everything.
but somehow my brain chooses not to listen to me.

because im an idiot.


and i know YOU are a liar.
lies, false promises....

why am i always being so stupid?

the more i want to forget you, the more i think about you.

and goddamnit. im only 16.
im not supposed to be in love with someone like this.

i swear this has nothing to do with hormones.
it just.... has to do with this really nice guy....


ahh wells.
anyways,
faking my own suicide is the song of the day.
its stuck in my head.
and attached with it, is my dear friend.


i've told you who you are already.
and dont worry. im not in love with you.

even though one of the previous posts mentioned that all reliant k songs reminded me of the person i love.


to the person i love,
wont you give us a chance?
wont you let me in again?
wont you love me as much as you did before?



okay, readers.
you must think im a lovesick idiot.

yes i am. and i need a cure to this sickness.
i tried to distract myself with studies.
but noooo.........
i cant forget you.
and i cant stop thinking bout ya.



sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....


"stop living in the past, move on and have a happy future"

i've heard that phrase like a million times.

and i do not deny that i AM emo. and i should really stop being this way.
but the thing is.... how....?




trust me,
i dont wanna be emo.

look! i even changed blogskin!

HAH -_____-





tadeedoos

♥ MEL
11:45 PM