won't you love me too. it's as simple as that ♥

♥ Sunday, April 20, 2008

2 a.m., I lie down deep in slumber
Feelings of falling downward
I want to forget.
Waking up, I hear the way your voice sounds
My heart starts to pound now,
To the rhythm of yours.
You're so angelic,
Your words so symphonic
Touch your lips to my soul, eat this sorrow away
How am I so lucky I found you?
Sometimes I feel like I'm still dreaming
It seems like every day, you're always on my mind
This is how we stay so connected, so connected,
Over space and time.
When we talk about all my old drama,
You look at me and wonder, how I'm not insane.
Every week the days seem to get longer
But you know our love gets stronger,
with every word we say.
Stronger every day
You know I would do anything, for you.
Sometimes I feel like I'm still dreaming
It seems like every day, you're always on my mind
This is how we stay so connected, so connected,
Over space and time.
If you are feeling down, you know I feel it now
We give each other strength to make it through the darkness
You take me to a place, I never want to leave
I'm in my deepest dream, I don't ever want to wake up
I'll fight till I die, I won't say goodbye, and I won't let this pass me by.
Sometimes I feel like I'm still dreaming
It seems like every day, you're always on my mind
This is how we stay so connected, so connected
Over space and time.
Let's run away, run away, run away now
Let's go away, go away to some place safe.
I want it all now, I want everything
This is how we stay so connected, so connected
Over space and time

Still Dreaming by Silverstein

i sleep on a bed with two pillows, four bolster
and of course,
my favourite small bolster that i've been using since i was a baby

all that sentimental shit.
ahh wells.

that was completely random, i admit.
but how can you not be random on days you want to kill yourself?

you might be asking why i'm posting such a redundant and nonsensical post on such a wet and dark and gloomy day.

not forgetting the fact, exams are just a blink of an eye away.

which is like.... so soon \=

okay, about the change of url situation.

erm, i sorta have to change url whenever someone i don't want reading my blog suddenly finds my blog and reads it.

well, not that i bitch about her.
but still, i don't like the feeling she's reading my blog.

and according to colin, my blog's really ambiguous huh.
well, yeah.
cos i don't wanna state the person's name.

hmm, well....
just take it that i wanna stay mysterious?
or i wanna protect the person's identity?

i still can't get that paramore song out of my head.

and that fking SUCKS.

what would you do,
if you just can't stop thinking about someone you don't want to miss.

but that person is just THERE.
that person can't just disappear from the surface of the Earth unless you kill him.

reminiscing the past sucks.
really.

and you can't blame me.
today's a gloomy and emo-ish day.
so,

i sit in my room.
door closed.
lights all off.
silverstein's playing from my music player.

i think about the past 4 years.
and please, i didn't think anything about my studies.
not all that "think about your 4years in cedar" crap.

i was thinking about what i've done with my life so far.

and i feel like i've been eating trash.
done so many stupid things i don't have enough fingers to count.
got into emotional entanglements, friendship problems,
family problems, and even thoughts about suicide.

well, all guys don't like emo girls.
and all girls don't like their girl friend to be emo too.

so well,
call me emo, hardcore or even STUPID.
i don't care.

cos i do admit i am.
and i am what i am.
so don't try to change me.

and thank you, marc.
for always being there for me.
and encouraging me not be emo.
but i'm sorry.
your friend here can't be saved.
in the meanwhile, do have fun with life ((:
and stop worrying about me.
i won't cut myself anymore! (:

ohh....
there's actually a long list of people to thank.

like my friend aka bro#5, mr. reuben, who hasn't been tagging on my blog in a long time.
and so many more....

hmm, i feel really sorry about letting down a couple of people.
well, i'm sure you know who you are.

and i decided that books are always the reason why people break up.
as in, at this age.

think about this, is breaking up really that hard?

i watch my friends dumping each other cos of books.

"i'm sorry we can't be together. cos i really wanna put studies first"
"i'm sorry we can't be together. time is so tight. and i have so much to do, so much homework"
"i'm sorry we can't be together. exams are here. i really wanna focus on studies"
"i'm sorry we can't be together. cos i get really distracted when i'm with you"
"I'M REALLY SORRY WE CAN'T BE TOGETHER. I'M AFRAID OF DISTRACTING YOU FROM YOUR STUDIES."

honestly, more than half of that are excuses.

fking excuses.

after reading those, do you still think breaking up is hard.

fuck yeah, its easy like shit, ain't it?
all you have to do is put on a fking innocent face.
and say either one of the stupid excuses in the person's face.

or maybe even worse,
you call up the person.
you SMS the person.

bloody hell, it definitely sucks.

if you haven't experienced that, you're a lucky ass.

conclusion: DO NOT FALL IN LOVE.

oh wait, am i sounding overly spiteful?
cos that's totally not intended.
i'm just stating from what i have seen....
and partly, what i've experienced.

so come'n,
if you wanna break up with a person next time,
do it with sincerity.
and do not ever use "studies" or "books" as an excuse.

maybe someday if you see your ex on the streets you could ask him
"hey, how's your new girlfriend?"
then he'll give you the stupid look and say "i don't have one"
then maybe you could laugh in his face.
"Fking liar. where are your books?"

okay, that was uber lame.

but well, that's fact.

life is full of misery.
and misery loves company doesn't it.

ahh wells.

anyways, it's
SILVERSTEIN day!

i love silverstein.
and their songs (du-uh!)

recommended songs:
(1) Love With Caution
(2) Still Dreaming
(3) My Heroine
(4) Smile In Your Sleep
(5) Bodies and Words
(6) If You Could See Into My Soul

all silverstein songs.
ENJOY! =D

toodles ((:

♥ MEL

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