DIE!! So now the lights flash white And all you see is anger get up Was your life worth it, were you content Could you make everything feel perfect In your own head But now after all, Can you just forget But now after all, What do you got to show for it (Chorus) To darkness, to suffer when I fall I will see you in hell To darkness, to suffer when I fall I will see you in hell DIE!! There's no second chance, To write away that anger take it I felt comfort in this broken glass, we're soaked in ash Would you catch me if I fell, hurting But now after all, Can you just forget But now after all, What do you got to show for it
See You In Hell by Aiden
today's mood is weird.... it's like, one moment i'm really smiling from the bottom of my heart. the next, i'm feeling emo.
asking myself what i want with life. asking myself why i am living in this world.
and then i slap myself in the forehead, and scold myself. asking myself why i am still alive.
then i go, oh fk. why am i so emo. i ought to cut myself and stab myself.
and then i scold myself again, emo thoughts. which stupid person cuts herself cos she feels angry that she feels emo.
the whole damned thing is ironical.
AHHH
the great singapore sale is here. and fkshit, good ol' mel is pissingly broke.
(i have no idea how i came up with that adjective)
LOLS,
and suddenly i don't feel emo anymore. listening to hardcore ._.
sunsets and car crashes....
i suddenly forgot what i wanted to write.
been so long since mel emo-ed huh ._.
toodles (:
♥ MEL
11:46 PM
♥ Monday, May 12, 2008
The drugs begin to peak A smile of joy arrives in me But sedation changes to panic and nausea And breath starts to shorten And heartbeats pound softer You won't try to save me! You just want to hurt me and leave me desperate! You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had.I can't forget, the times that I was Lost and depressed from the awful truth How do you do it? You're my heroine! You won't leave me alone! Chisel my heart out of stone, I give in everytime. You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had I can't forget, the times that I was Lost and depressed from the awful truth How do you do it? You're my heroine! I bet you laugh, at the thought of me thinking for myself. I bet you believe, that I'm better off with you than someone else. Your face arrives again, all hope I had becomes surreal. But under your covers more torture than pleasure And just past your lips there's more anger than laughter Not now or forever will I ever change youI know that to go on, I'll break you, my habit! You taught my heart, a sense I never knew I had. I can't forget, the times when I was Lost and depressed form the awful truth How do you do it? You're my heroine!
My Heroine by Silverstein
this is my blogsong. and one of my favourite silverstein songs =D but it doesn't apply to me though. but it's emo. and well.... im feeling kinda down and depressed now x=
MEL IS SO NOT EMO! =D
i've been owing this blogpost for days.... teehee, a certain someone been pestering me to write a post about him. everyday somemore!
HAHA, bet you're laughing while reading this!
cos all my blogposts are simply stupid and retarded. and most of the time they don't make sense.
heehee, honestly.... i really dont know what to say. cos havent been blogging for so long, i kinda forgot what i usually write about. and my inspiration is dissapearing.
i cant think properly anymore. and im getting really stupid.
so stupid, i dont even think a poly will accept me >_<
yeah, not in the mood to blog.
sorry dear! another time then write bout you =D
toodles
♥ MEL
11:41 PM
♥ Friday, May 02, 2008
I wonder, what life would be like if my shoulder could bare the weight of all this adding up I feel the breaking point it's close enough, it's feeling real again you have my heart in your hands you have my heart so don't, don't let it go check my pressure patch me right up, you're too good to be it's true, we both make sacrifices there's proof, it came as no surprise it boiled up as we always let it do we made it through again
too good to be by new found glory
i've been listening to happy songs these few days. my poor drop dead, gorgeous....
haha, but well. it's a good thing, ain't it?
NEW FOUND GLORY. haven't really listened to this band like since forever. since last year june in new zealand. whole day listen to NFG. couldn't get my mind off those songs.
WOOTS. my friends are getting hotter! got so many hot friends.
uber random ._.
been listening to hawk nelson too. this awesome song called
IS FOREVER ENOUGH What makes all of us hate We're all the same We roll the dice and we play your game We complicate Show us the way before it's too late and the whole thing breaks We have a name We all create everything else from mistakes we've made We'll make a change We'll concentrate before we suffocate Can't hold this in and keep it quiet any longer I've fallen in and now this feeling's getting stronger You take my breath away Now i'm trying to get up I'm trying to retrace my steps back to wherever i messed up Is forever enough? I'm holding on I know you'll be there whenever i wake up What makes everything change? We're not the same We all get suck in the same cliche We're taking aim We dominate Put on the pressure till the whole thing breaks How come we wait? Why do we hate? And throw it away like the last crusade We'll rearrange We need it to change before we suffocate Can't hold this in and keep it quiet any longer I've fallen in and now this feeling's getting stronger You take my breath away Now i'm trying to get up I'm trying to retrace my steps back to wherever i messed up Is forever enough? I'm holding on I know you'll be there whenever i wake up What makes all of us hate Show us the way before it's too late and the whole thing breaks
songs can really affect your mood. if you're feeling sad, sad songs make you sadder. but then again, if you're sad, why would you listen to happy songs?
LALALA.... no more emo posts are cutting or slashing, no more emo posts about stupid breakups, no more emo posts. period.
im sitting at the com now, doing so many things. im the champion multi-tasker! things im doing now: (1) talking on the phone (2) talking on msn (3) typing this stupid post (4) checking my friendster (5) texting friends
been so long since i talked to some of my good friends time to catch up!
and time to stop thinking about someone.
beepbeepbeepbeepbeep i dont know what to write liao. but im so bored and i feel like writing a long post....
now, i am going to talk to you about my dear friend REUBEN! reuben is my bro #5. he is a insanely smart boy studying in vjc. and he is very nice too! he always encourages me and teaches me right from wrong. hes just like a real brother to me. without him, i think my life will be boring. i always hate the end of the month when his bill bursts, cos i cant msg him. and must wait until the 6th day of the next month. reuben always like to suan me bout guys. say i change bf damn fast and flirt with different guys xD reuben also very funny! hes so lame and cute sometimes. he can really make me laugh when im sad.
HAHA, once upon a time, there was this cute stupid boy called xiaostorm. (xiao ah wang!)
ahwang so cute worhx. got that cute cute hairstyle. everyday shout "xiao xi fe-er" stupid boy should also do that!
yay!
stupid boy likes to sing hokkien songs. and crazy nursery rhymes that make me fall asleep....
stupid boy also very CUTE! (haha, you must be damn happy) he everytime try to act cute also! and he always try to copy my cute laugh!
cute stupid boy is addicted to talking to me! cos he everyday will call me that start laughing like siao. then when time to put down the phone will keep saying byebye so many times.... but show no sign of wanting to put down!
HEH. crazy boy also like banana! banana and strawberry drink. but stupid boy dont want change his favourite fruit to strawberry....
got alot of words to describe stupid boy. so if i were to write about stupid boy, the post is never going to be finished d=
and must be fair also, later other people jealous x=
replies to tages: reuben-- yesyes.... i am not emo kayy! yay! i everyday happy happy one! =D i love reuben korkor
sili-- haha, not emo then good lorh.... stay happy =D and smile everyday! i love sili jiejie
joyce-- helloes! how come im fuzzy funny mel? \= lols, but sounds cute anyways =D i love j0yce too!
xiaostorm-- HELLO STUPID BOY! i saw your blog picture! HAHA.... but i dont like your blog song \= i think my blog song's worst anyways d= i love stupid boy too!
tie ren-- aiyoh.... you everytime come my blog then give me funny funny tag \= HAHA, but never mind. tag better than dont tag.... hows life anyways? =D talk to more girls!
wahh, the post so long liao.... can go eat ice cream le....
toodles =D
♥ MEL
7:04 PM
ME ♥
MEL THE GREAT ♥
how many great people on earth do you know?
MELMELMEL ♥
17yo.
09.01.1992.
pei chun public school. class of 2004.
cedar girls seconday school. class of 2008.
anderson junior college. class of 2010.
