LOVE ME, LEAVE ME, OR RIP ME APART? Let me introduce myself, my name is no concern The room is filled with superficial voices As the smoke clears I can see one hundred little lies Racing to the finish for a consolation prize I want to be wrong I wish that I was uncertain just like yesterday This is not who I am, been planning my escape So long now that my map looks like a maze Always on the dark side of a pessimistic moon Or burning in the sun of what they're saying If you have the foresight can you read between the lines? Finger two and four inviting fingers one and five To be in this song, it's nothing I can shut off But I think it's my place To let you know I know that all your plans are fake And what you give me I could never take Are you confusing me with someone else you hardly even know? I'm sitting here observing and more often I am learningThat you are an artist and this is your show... so sing it I want to be wrong but what did i really think That this could become real? Now writing in cliches to learn from my mistakes But how much of you could anyone take?
I WANT TO BE WRONG by NO USE FOR A NAME
three posts with three different songs by no use for a name. been listening to them the whole trip.
everyone, im back from australia.
and i've been feeling down the past few days. but don't worry, i'll cheer up.
i hate my nose. and i really hate myself sometimes.
ahh wells....
bought many stuffs from australia. especially for my darlings (:
so i guess i'll pass them to ya the next time we hang out (:
new blogskin. thanks to a good friend of mine (:
and lydia, i really missed you, girl! we really have to hang out sometime soon!
toodles (:
♥ MEL
8:09 PM
♥ Monday, November 17, 2008
YOURS TO HOLD AND YOURS TO DESTROY
Suddenly I see myself returning To the scene where I was ridden of this crime Looking at the outline of the chalk drawn on the street I left so much behind here that the silhouette was me I never thought that we were miserable But how can two be only in it for themselves? There is nothing left to say, I've swallowed my tongue anyway Driving out into another state, I can see the road behind me Falling back into the same mistake, so hard to avoid Never will the smallest voice again be silent, yours to destroy Panic followed blindly by depression When the roads become the buildings in your mind Moving up the elevator to floor sixty-three A metaphor? Yes that is right I still cannot be free On the roof I start to realize I may not have a hope at least I have this view Apologies for what's been said, half of which was in my head And if I have to follow you, you will not rip this heart of mine in two You cannot break this chain But you can build a wall to shut me out if you so choose I know that I have come and gone But I can't keep pulling myself away A noose around my neck I walk around the city as the night becomes the day And if you come around I may just not be found
YOURS TO DESTROY by NO USE FOR A NAME
i love shopping! and i love my dear too (:
cant wait for australia! toodles! (:
♥ MEL
12:30 AM
♥ Thursday, November 13, 2008
Blinding me it seems you cannot help out with the situation It always has to be somebody's fault but never yours Taking what I said and making things up that did not exist before Every time we say hello, it's like meeting a total stranger And when we're on our own you know there's not much left to say Just wait for everyone to nod their head then you nod yours What difference will that make? Falling backwards like a domino to a place where you cannot hide You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie? Don't you love yourself enough to kick them when they're in a corner? I really have to go, when I get back will you be gone? Keeping your shape hidden with your triangle intact, I turn around but I can see behind my back Falling backwards like a domino to a place where you cannot hide You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie? Lie to yourself with one hand on the switch One to open doors that lock from outside I'm not here to beg You'll have to learn to swallow your pride... why? To a place where you cannot hide You keep asking yourself is this real or really all a lie? You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie?
DOMINO by NO USE FOR A NAME
no use for a name has an awesome drummer : D
oh, anyways. recently i've been seriously non-emo. really. i dont listen to hardcore or deathcore like drop dead, gorgeous and bring me the horizon.... im into no use for a name! seriously, can listen to their albums for hours. over and over again.
and my non-emo-ness can be proven from my lovely nails. bright pink on my fingernails and neon pink on my toenails. hahahaha, this is kinda stupid eh. emo to bimbo (according to my silly sister)
anyways, im down with running nose ): or a flu. dont know the difference. my throat hurts ): and i think ulcers are coming out ):
so sad. and im going overseas so soon! like, next week. less than a week's time : D i look forward to it. but i dont look forward to being sick on the trip. i must get well soon : D
its summer in australia at this moment. i love summer. cos i dont have to wear till so wrapped up. okay, now dont get me wrong. i obviously wont wear a bikini and walk all over town. but at least i dont have to wear long sleeves and jeans ALL the time : D
look on the bright side, taking a break from singapore is quite fun. cos life here is really hectic. and once im on holiday, im worry-free : D
its a good thing y'know.
oh, and apologies to mabel, kw, ys, jx, celine (my committee) i know you read my blog but dont tag. im passing over all my duties to you. cos im not going ): dont be sad ya. cos im sure you'll make loads of friends there. and its time the committee know each other better too. making friends at the end of the year is such a fun thing. cos we'll never see each other at tuition ever again.
ahh wells, back to talking about my holiday : D im bring this luggage bag. thats like super big. all my clothes inside. and im bring COOKIE MONSTER with me : D i wanted to bring more toys. like, my giraffey, hello kitty, tinky winky. but theres no space. cos my clothes have filled up all the space ): awwwwww.... im gonna miss them.
Os are over and i dont feel like its over. even though my books are rotting in a corner and i dont have to study for any paper anymore.
but it really doesnt feel like its over.
and, i've been having a great time. tuesday after my last paper, i went to play pool and watch hsm3. wednesday i watched max payne, did alot of walking around, went vivo. so cool : D but i think yesterday was most fun. cos i woke up damn early just to go over to amk hub to catch a 104o movie. madagascar 2. hahahaha, it was such a funny experience. cos i've never woken up so early to go out before. and the craziest thing is, i lost my ez link card. so i couldnt travel to many places. had to buy standard ticket. and worst of all is, i reached home at 415. and there was no one at home. my mummy didnt give me keys today. so i was like, "what the fuck" been in a bad mood since then. cos i just felt so unloved. my mummy only came back at around 520. so i kinda stood outside the house for more than an hour. imagine standing there with nothing to do. just stone. there was like, no phone call, no sms, no chair to sit. nothing. all i did was listen to music and eat chips. and that kinda sucked. cos i've been walking around the whole day. and my feet were aching. then now i had to stand for more than an hour.
i really felt so left out, so lonely, so unloved. my mummy had wanted to tell me that she wont be home so early. but she forgot. cos she was chatting with my granny. and cos of that, i had to wait outside the house like some idiot. standing there for more than an hour. i just felt like crying. and the police car patrolling my estate drove a few rounds. maybe they thought i wanted to burglar my own house or something. what a joke.
well, i guess that was the main event of yesterday. quite dumb. and when i went inside the house. i went straight to bathe. standing outside the house in black long sleeves for an hour. SWEAT >_< i had no energy to stand while bathing. all i did was curse myself. maybe i should have just stayed out till late. my mummy told me to get home earlier. so i got home earlier and yet i get this kinda treatment. its not fair.
my legs ached throughout the whole night. and its still aching.
i dont mean to complain so much. but this isnt the first time! the last time i went to do cip, then my mummy asked me to go to fernvale. where she would pick me up. but when i called her at compass point, she told me she was having lunch outside. "very soon, we'll come" the whole family went out to eat lunch with some relatives. without me. fine. so i was thinking 'very soon' would come. in the end, i waited at compass point for more than 4 hours. stranded. cos my mummy didnt give me the key again. for fuck's sake, she should just give me a set of keys right. so i dont have to go through this over and over again. oh, thats not the funniest part. i was stranded in compass point. fever. and tired. all i wanted to do was to get home and rest. when i reached home, my fever was 38 degrees. i still remember, sha mei telling me. "when you called we just started lunch. ten- course meal quite nice" i was soooo irritated with my family. couldnt they tell me in advance. i dont feel like im part of the family.
and on my birthday. just because my mummy forgot that i told her that im going tuition on my own, she grounded me. on my birthday. i couldnt go out with my best friends.
so its one against two. she ought to be slapped. actually there are many other cases, where i was sick and she forced me to go out with her, cos she wants to perm her hair, dye her hair and all that shit.
its unfair. this world is unfair
dont see i live in a house and i have nice expensive stuff once in awhile. i call it bribery. this is so idiotic.
so i guess im the never 'forgive and forget' kinda person. i hold grudges. i remember everything every person has done to make me unhappy. and when i have the chance, i'll really teach these people a lesson. dont mess with me, even though im such a cute innocent little girl
anyways, i cant wait to watch another movie. cos im like crazy about watching movies now. and i guess i shouldnt let my mood be spoilt today.
alrighty. toodles (:
♥ MEL
6:28 PM
♥ Thursday, November 06, 2008
Feels like I have always known you And I swear I dreamt about you All those endless nights I was alone It's like I've spent forever searching Now I know that it was worth it With you it feels like I am finally home Falling head over heels Thought I knew how it feels But with you it's like the first day of my life 'Cuz you leave me speechless when you talk to me You leave me breathless the way you look at me You managed to disarm me, my soul is shining through Can't help but surrender my everything to you Ohh... I thought I could resist you I thought that I was strong Somehow you were different from what I've known I didn't see you coming You took me by surprise and You stole my heart before I could say no Falling head over heels Thought I knew how it feels But with you it's like the first day of my life You leave me speechless when you talk to me You leave me breathless the way you look at me You manage to disarm me, my soul is shining through I can't help but surrender, oh, my everything to you Oh... Oh... You leave me speechless (the way you smile, the way you touch my face) You leave me breathless (it's something that you do I can't explain) I'd run a million miles just to hear you say my name Baby You leave me speechless You leave me breathless (the way you look at me) You manage to disarm me, my soul is shining through I can't help but surrender my everything to you Oh...
SPEECHLESS by THE VERONICAS
you leave me speechless. seriously. i dont know what to say anymore.
my heart has turned to stone. and i wait for the day my sun shines again.
everyone has their limits. and everyone must draw a line.
c'est la vie what can i do
thanks stacey, raylia and my kors who have always been here for me.
check out new songs on my playlist. pretty nice. for a girl band (:
life's alright. once exams are over. i hope it'll be
xiaostorm-- leg massage? you owe me one! reuben-- never watch. i listen to hardcore and softcore SONGS kas-- who are you?
♥ MEL
6:04 PM
♥ Monday, November 03, 2008
This was never the way I planned Not my intention. I got so brave, drink in hand Lost my discretion It's not what I'm used to Just wanna try you on I'm curious, for you, Caught my attention I kissed a girl And I liked it The taste of her cherry chapstick I kissed a girl Just to try it I hope my boyfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl And I liked it (I liked it) No, I don't even know your name It doesn't matter You're my experimental game Just human nature It's not what good girls do Not how they should behave My head gets so confused Hard to obey I kissed a girl And I liked it The taste of her cherry chapstick I kissed a girl Just to try it I hope my boyfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl And I liked it (I liked it) Us girls we are so magical Soft skin, red lips, so kissable Hard to resist, so touchable Too good to deny it Ain't no big deal it's innocent I kissed a girl And I liked it The taste of her cherry chapstick I kissed a girl Just to try it I hope my boyfriend don't mind it It felt so wrong It felt so right Don't mean I'm in love tonight I kissed a girl And I liked it (I liked it)
I KISSED A GIRL by KATE PERRY
i kissed sha mei. on her cheek. act of sisterly love.
im strong on the outside but fragile on the inside. but now i dont even know whether i can take the slightest blow.
i think i've really gotten some mental problem. its like, im obsessed. i kill a fly before lunch. and i cant properly started eating my food till i've washed my hands. about 3 to 4 times. with dethol, with kirei kirei.... etc. and i wash my face like freaking dunno how many times a day.
and regardless how many times i kick something, or i bang my hand against my table or something, i never feel pain.
i dont feel pain
♥ MEL
7:56 PM
ME ♥
MEL THE GREAT ♥
how many great people on earth do you know?
MELMELMEL ♥
17yo.
09.01.1992.
pei chun public school. class of 2004.
cedar girls seconday school. class of 2008.
anderson junior college. class of 2010.
