Blinding me it seems you cannot help out with the situation It always has to be somebody's fault but never yours Taking what I said and making things up that did not exist before Every time we say hello, it's like meeting a total stranger And when we're on our own you know there's not much left to say Just wait for everyone to nod their head then you nod yours What difference will that make? Falling backwards like a domino to a place where you cannot hide You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie? Don't you love yourself enough to kick them when they're in a corner? I really have to go, when I get back will you be gone? Keeping your shape hidden with your triangle intact, I turn around but I can see behind my back Falling backwards like a domino to a place where you cannot hide You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie? Lie to yourself with one hand on the switch One to open doors that lock from outside I'm not here to beg You'll have to learn to swallow your pride... why? To a place where you cannot hide You keep asking yourself is this real or really all a lie? You keep asking yourself is this real or really just a lie?
DOMINO by NO USE FOR A NAME
no use for a name has an awesome drummer : D
oh, anyways. recently i've been seriously non-emo. really. i dont listen to hardcore or deathcore like drop dead, gorgeous and bring me the horizon.... im into no use for a name! seriously, can listen to their albums for hours. over and over again.
and my non-emo-ness can be proven from my lovely nails. bright pink on my fingernails and neon pink on my toenails. hahahaha, this is kinda stupid eh. emo to bimbo (according to my silly sister)
anyways, im down with running nose ): or a flu. dont know the difference. my throat hurts ): and i think ulcers are coming out ):
so sad. and im going overseas so soon! like, next week. less than a week's time : D i look forward to it. but i dont look forward to being sick on the trip. i must get well soon : D
its summer in australia at this moment. i love summer. cos i dont have to wear till so wrapped up. okay, now dont get me wrong. i obviously wont wear a bikini and walk all over town. but at least i dont have to wear long sleeves and jeans ALL the time : D
look on the bright side, taking a break from singapore is quite fun. cos life here is really hectic. and once im on holiday, im worry-free : D
its a good thing y'know.
oh, and apologies to mabel, kw, ys, jx, celine (my committee) i know you read my blog but dont tag. im passing over all my duties to you. cos im not going ): dont be sad ya. cos im sure you'll make loads of friends there. and its time the committee know each other better too. making friends at the end of the year is such a fun thing. cos we'll never see each other at tuition ever again.
ahh wells, back to talking about my holiday : D im bring this luggage bag. thats like super big. all my clothes inside. and im bring COOKIE MONSTER with me : D i wanted to bring more toys. like, my giraffey, hello kitty, tinky winky. but theres no space. cos my clothes have filled up all the space ): awwwwww.... im gonna miss them.
Os are over and i dont feel like its over. even though my books are rotting in a corner and i dont have to study for any paper anymore.
but it really doesnt feel like its over.
and, i've been having a great time. tuesday after my last paper, i went to play pool and watch hsm3. wednesday i watched max payne, did alot of walking around, went vivo. so cool : D but i think yesterday was most fun. cos i woke up damn early just to go over to amk hub to catch a 104o movie. madagascar 2. hahahaha, it was such a funny experience. cos i've never woken up so early to go out before. and the craziest thing is, i lost my ez link card. so i couldnt travel to many places. had to buy standard ticket. and worst of all is, i reached home at 415. and there was no one at home. my mummy didnt give me keys today. so i was like, "what the fuck" been in a bad mood since then. cos i just felt so unloved. my mummy only came back at around 520. so i kinda stood outside the house for more than an hour. imagine standing there with nothing to do. just stone. there was like, no phone call, no sms, no chair to sit. nothing. all i did was listen to music and eat chips. and that kinda sucked. cos i've been walking around the whole day. and my feet were aching. then now i had to stand for more than an hour.
i really felt so left out, so lonely, so unloved. my mummy had wanted to tell me that she wont be home so early. but she forgot. cos she was chatting with my granny. and cos of that, i had to wait outside the house like some idiot. standing there for more than an hour. i just felt like crying. and the police car patrolling my estate drove a few rounds. maybe they thought i wanted to burglar my own house or something. what a joke.
well, i guess that was the main event of yesterday. quite dumb. and when i went inside the house. i went straight to bathe. standing outside the house in black long sleeves for an hour. SWEAT >_< i had no energy to stand while bathing. all i did was curse myself. maybe i should have just stayed out till late. my mummy told me to get home earlier. so i got home earlier and yet i get this kinda treatment. its not fair.
my legs ached throughout the whole night. and its still aching.
i dont mean to complain so much. but this isnt the first time! the last time i went to do cip, then my mummy asked me to go to fernvale. where she would pick me up. but when i called her at compass point, she told me she was having lunch outside. "very soon, we'll come" the whole family went out to eat lunch with some relatives. without me. fine. so i was thinking 'very soon' would come. in the end, i waited at compass point for more than 4 hours. stranded. cos my mummy didnt give me the key again. for fuck's sake, she should just give me a set of keys right. so i dont have to go through this over and over again. oh, thats not the funniest part. i was stranded in compass point. fever. and tired. all i wanted to do was to get home and rest. when i reached home, my fever was 38 degrees. i still remember, sha mei telling me. "when you called we just started lunch. ten- course meal quite nice" i was soooo irritated with my family. couldnt they tell me in advance. i dont feel like im part of the family.
and on my birthday. just because my mummy forgot that i told her that im going tuition on my own, she grounded me. on my birthday. i couldnt go out with my best friends.
so its one against two. she ought to be slapped. actually there are many other cases, where i was sick and she forced me to go out with her, cos she wants to perm her hair, dye her hair and all that shit.
its unfair. this world is unfair
dont see i live in a house and i have nice expensive stuff once in awhile. i call it bribery. this is so idiotic.
so i guess im the never 'forgive and forget' kinda person. i hold grudges. i remember everything every person has done to make me unhappy. and when i have the chance, i'll really teach these people a lesson. dont mess with me, even though im such a cute innocent little girl
anyways, i cant wait to watch another movie. cos im like crazy about watching movies now. and i guess i shouldnt let my mood be spoilt today.
alrighty. toodles (:
♥ MEL
6:28 PM
ME ♥
MEL THE GREAT ♥
how many great people on earth do you know?
MELMELMEL ♥
17yo.
09.01.1992.
pei chun public school. class of 2004.
cedar girls seconday school. class of 2008.
anderson junior college. class of 2010.
