won't you love me too. it's as simple as that ♥

♥ Saturday, January 17, 2009

And we're friends, we're friends
Just because we move units

I'm waiting
For the perfect time to call you back
Cos' I remember saying
Don't wanna know the truth
Can't handle that
And I try to just forget you
But I don't know how
If only I knew
It's written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care
Maybe I could meet you there
I'm sorry
If I slagged you down
I meant no harm
When I heard the stories
Said things I didn't mean
Should have stayed calm
But sadly
You got angry
And it breaks my heart
You're so mad at me
Its written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Its written all over your face
Such a painful thing to waste
Tell me now
Where do we go
Now the future's not so clear
I can't believe we've ended here
Where's the world that doesn't care
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I could meet you there
Maybe I should meet you there

MEET YOU THERE by BUSTED.

TODAY SUCKS.
woke up at 830.
feeling tired.
'cos last night didnt sleep well.
even though i dreamt of someone.
it was weird i even dreamt of him.
it just really got me thinking,
is he the one i want?
or am i just being crazy and thinking too much into a stupid dream.

and the first text i received was from weeb.
saying he wanna change day for movie.
then i had to text davin to change our lunch to another day.
but lucky the morning stuff werent affected.
next week busy week for me sia.
but i like going out with friends luh,
so i dont mind. (:

im feeling funny today.
i dont know how to describe the exact feeling.
but its just weird.

well,
today we were supposed to buy iPhone.
so we went to heartland mall.
the fucking visa and nets system was down.
so its either cash or we go to another branch.
and my parents decided to go J8 one.
WOW. there no stock.
so what the fuck,
all the stupid wasted trips.
ahh well, its alright.
i cant do much.
its fate, i guess.

people arent replying my texts,
but its fine.
i've got nothing to say about that.
i just feel really restless and stuff.

and also,
i played Wii for the whole afternoon.
now im aching like crazy.
seriously,
my fingers hurt while im typing.

so i guess i cant even play piano for now?

on the bright side,
manicure on monday! =D

okay,
so only two good things so far.
its been a really rotten day.

feeling so sian.
'cos i accidentally deleted alot of songs from my com.
which makes me not a music library anymore.
just a screwed up human being with little songs.

and the emo feeling is here,
creeping and spreading thru me uncontrollably.
i feel like stuffing myself with food,
yet at the same time i dont feel like eating at all.

FUCK.
im feeling so irritated with myself.
i cant stand it anymore.
its this weird feeling of wanting to isolate myself from the world,
yet....
im sure i'd rather have someone to talk to.
someone to tell me jokes to cheer me up....
someone to talk to me to keep me sane....

well,
im listening to BLINK 182's live concert now.
its quite awesome.

and i've gotta speak my mind about some things.
some things that get me really irritated.

PERSON A.
a girl who cares about guys more than me.
its fine for a girl to like talking to guys.
its fine for a girl to have guy friends.
its fine for a girl to talk to many guys at one time.
but the pretty face gets you nowhere.
you need to care about your girl friends too!
when in times of need and stuff,
you come to me.
you tell me your guy problems.
and i'll give you advice.
after that,
you just drift off.
probably with a new guy or something.
FUCKING IRRITATING.
at least spare a fucking thought for me?
you think im here for you forever?
CHERISH YOUR FRIENDS LUH!
those goddamned guy friends of yours come and go.
you got unlimited SMS, so what?
text all the guys and when i sms you,
you dont even reply.
you think you saint uh?
when you want to talk to me,
i must talk to you.
but when i wanna talk to you,
you so reluctant to talk to me.
and its not like im all the time talking about guy problems okay!
DARE YOU TO TELL ME IN MY FACE THAT YOU DONT WANT TO TALK TO ME.
i swear,
the next time you sms me,
im not gonna bother reply.
I SWEAR.
im seriously damn pissed with you now, okay.
i wont accept your apology.
i wont forgive and forget.
trust me.

PERSON B.
a guy, after breaking up with his ex,
keep showing off that he now knows so many new girls.
yeah, like whatever luh.
DO YOU EVEN KNOW HOW FUCKING DESPO YOU ARE?
meet a girl,
chat her up,
get her number,
its fine.
but dont go around showing off you got so many freaking new girlfriends luh.
curse you turn GAY.
DESPOs are like so irritating luh.
I HATE THIS KINDA PEOPLE.
and plus somemore,
go for looks when hes not even handsome.
JUST FUCKING LOOK IN YOUR GODDAMNED MIRROR.
see your face?
look like APE right?
you still want date girls?
go fuck an orang utan luh.
bloody hell.

PERSON C.
a guy whos not bad looking and think he can get all the girls.
FUCK YOU.
you think you're mr. singapore?
go see what you'll look like in 10years luh.
bet you look worst.
so what if you're fit now?
so what if you look good now?
so what if you're good with girls?
this charm aint gonna last, dude.
and those MIND GAMES....
it makes you a fucking bastard.
spare a thought for people's feelings.
STUPID PLAYER.
when you get played,
you'll learn your lesson as well.
HAVE FUN GETTING HURT.
if you're lucky,
it wont happen to you.
but you know what you are.
A FUCKING FLIRT WHO PLAYS PEOPLE'S FEELINGS.
go get a life.
playing with feelings isnt the best hobby you can have.
for you,
i'd suggest....
cutting yourself everyday?
STAB YOUR STOMACH AND BLEED.
and cry for the one you really love,
who obviously wont love you 'cos you're so damn screwed up.
im not sorry at all, that we had a head on collision. (:

okay, sorry for the venting of anger and all that.
its really rather vulgar,
but i kinda feel better now.
typing all these out.
heh,
and if you fucker know im talking about you,
go stab yourself and self-reflect abit luh.
damnass.

im really sorry luh.
for those who are really shocked reading this.
i have to get EVERYTHING out of my chest.
and seriously,
now i feel like having a good meal.
and just watch MTV and smile more.
theres no icecream or chocolate left at home.
its really fun.
like some treasure hunt,
i have to go around hunting for something to eat.
and im sure im getting fat.
which aint good luh.

but who cares about me anyway. (:

anyway,
here are some songs that are really nice.
do check them out:

1. SOMETHING REAL by AMERICAN HI-FI.
2. SPEAK OF THE DEVIL by SUM 41.
3. BABY COME HOME by AMERICAN HI-FI.
4. I CAUGHT FIRE (IN YOUR EYES) by THE USED.
5. ADAM'S SONG by BLINK 182.
6. HEAD ON COLLISION by NEW FOUND GLORY.
7. MISERY LOVES ITS COMPANY by THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS.

Oh yeah, you caught me.
But I caught you on worse
They say, "You want a war? You've got a war."
But who are you fighting for?
The tide's out, the ship's run aground
We drown traitors in shallow water

you've got a way of making me feel like this.
don't keep me waiting, please.
just stay with me now....

♥ MEL

1:10 AM