won't you love me too. it's as simple as that ♥

♥ Tuesday, January 06, 2009

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Because every breath that you will take when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?

No one is harder on me than myself
Or so it seems
Some say that you are my curse, my own worst enemy
I think they're wrong
They never thought our life could be like this
They never thought
I'll be your safe ride home when you call me,
I'll be everything and more
When you call my name
I thought no one is smarter than me
No, I don't need anyone’s help!
Or so it seemed
You changed me for the good
They never understood
But even if they tried
I doubt they could
So take my nervous hand and we can take a stand
We don’t have to live by their demands
I never thought life could be like this
I never thought
When I'm with you there's no worries
When I’m with you there's no shame
When I'm with you, I’m secure
We choose to live against the grain
They could say we lack the progress
They could say that we're a mess
They could say we'll never make it
And I know we're better than their test
And I don't hear them anyway

SAFE RIDE by CUTE IS WHAT WE AIM FOR

TODAY I DIDNT GO OUT.
omg.

i had piano lesson in the morning.
and my piano teacher said my fingers were getting weak. ):
so i have to practise hanon every morning before i go out.
i'm not complaining!
'cos i love playing the piano. (:
YAY!

in addition,
not going out today was really a good decision.
'cos i got to watch the telly,play some computer games,
play my guitar,
and totally relax.
i'm rather lazy to go out anyway.

my iTunes is really nice to me today.it keeps playing nice songs continuously.
there was Moan, Hollywood, Time and The Kiss Of Dawn playing back to back.
which is really awesome,
'cos i love all four songs.

anyway,
i havent blogged about the exciting day i had yesterday. (:
my outing with my AHMA.
it was really great, man!
and ahma kept tripping over his foot 'cos he forgot to bring his walking stick.
AWWW.
we watched BEDTIME STORIES,
which was really nice,
but it was kinda kiddy.
I'M YOUNG AT HEART ANYWAYS =D
and i definitely dont look 17,
unless i try to put some make-up on,
which normally ends up making me look like some emo goth ._.

eyeliner is my favourite, you know!
okay, what the heck.
i'm not emo anymore.
in fact,
the past few days,
i've been rather cheery. (:
thanks to my few good friends who are forever nice to me.

dang!
i've been digressing.
anyway,
yesterday after the movie,
ahma and i went for FISH & CO.
awesome man,
the fish was superbly nice.
but as usual,
i couldnt finish.
'cos i'm seriously a super small eater.
ahma helped me eat one piece.
that was super insane.
'cos ahma had beef noodles before the movie,
wiped out his entire plate of fish and chips,
and still could eat somemore.
HAHA.
like in my previous post,
i called ahma a ....
NEVER MIND. xD
so after the super filling meal,
we wanted to go east coast park.
and as ahma is very rich,
we took taxi.
but it rained!
so we went parkway.
havent been there in ages man.
the last time i was there was 'cos i went VJC openhouse,
then went there for lunch with best friend.
and i met jon at the busstop.
it's quite funny,
thinking about it.
'cos i bet he shouted 'MEL' so many times,
the whole busstop already knows my name. xD
after that,
took a long busride home.
was really tired,
but i somehow still managed to keep myself awake to watch little nonya.
okay,
i know its like a great shock that im watching chinese dramas.
somehow,
i went online to kill boredom and keep awake.
and i ended up feeling so awake,
i couldn't fall asleep.
AGAIN.
bloody hell,
i really need to sleep early nowadays.
eye bags are gonna make me uglier man.

im feeling excited about tomorrow,
as usual.
i'm always feeling excited before i go out. (:
yippee. (:

anyway,
i couldn't fall asleep because i was thinking about somebody.
clue #1 : name begins with J.
i felt really awful about what happened between us, man.
i was really mean in treating this person so badly.
clue #2 : names ends with N.
whenever i talk to him,
the guilty feeling keeps coming back.
and i always feel this urge to make it up to him.
clue #3 : second last letter of the name is A.
actually,
he's really one of the coolest person to me.
i love his jokes,
and i love talking to him.
clue #4 : second letter of the name is O.
hmm, i really hope things can go back to normal.
i really find it hard to keep a proper conversation with him.
everytime his replies are like,
so short. ):
clue #5 : third last letter of the name is H.

okay, those reading this.
do not assume.
and do not get the wrong idea that i'm into this guy.
but the guilty conscience is there.
i didn't treat him well.
and i'm sorry.
i doubt he'll even be reading this.
but i just needed to vent it out.
NO MORE CLUES. GO FIGURE.

anyway,recently i've been reading people's blogs.
for fun's sake!
totally.
i'm not stalking anyone.
and it's really funny,
how people like to use the word 'YOU'.
it's so ambiguous.
'YOU' can refer to anyone, anything or even a dog.
eg.
"can you please show me a sign?"
the 'you' can refer to someone or even God.
i find it really stupid.
because people who use 'you' alot in their posts without stating who it is,
it's like,
trying to lead people on.so even if it doesn't concern this particular person but the situation fits,
that person might assume that the 'you' refers to him\her.
and that's really spastic,
leading people on....
maybe that might make something think that the person is being despised or hated.
maybe that person might just get the wrong idea.
yeap,totally.
so YOU better stop it. (:

toodles! (:

Tell me tell me
What makes you think that you are invincible
I can see it in your eyes that you're so sure
Please don’t tell me that I am the only one that’s vulnerable
Impossible

♥ MEL

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